Awwrighty, then!

I went online to schedule my annual diabetic eye exam, and was informed I can’t schedule it online, so I had to call and schedule it. My left eye is fine, but my right eye is seriously out of focus, no matter which part of my lens I am using, no matter what distance I am viewing. 🙁

I am seriously hoping I just need a better corrective prescription. But the doctor did say I was starting to have cataracts. This is definitely NOT a good thing. Besides general vision, if I’m supposed to make money with yarns and colors, I neeeeeed to be able to see clearly. Thankfully I can see color, but everything is fuzzy with the right eye, which forces my left eye to work harder and then I get a headache. Soooo unfair.

I’ve been taking a daily walk to the corner market, about two blocks away. This is the dog inside the market; he belongs to the woman who works there. I don’t know his name, not sure his breed. He comes up to just abov my knee – I can rub his head without bending over, so definitely a larger dog. Boomer could probably walk under this one and not touch his belly.

The daily short walks are definitely helping, but I’m still unsure if I can walk to Kroger and back on my own. I haven’t done that since before the big surgery, and I really do need to be able to do that.

With the weather forecast this week I probably won’t be dyeing until Thursday. That gives me a couple days to get my shit together and figure out what to do. I’m out of money and nearly out of yarn, but the rent and utilities and other bills are paid, and I have LOTS of edibles in the house, so I’m not in any sort of crisis or anything like that. It’s just frustrating that everyone seems to be broke and not buying yarn. And frustrating that I neeeed to increase the mailing list so that when I post a new collection there are buyers for most of them. I strongly dislike having bins and bins of unclaimed yarns ready to ship. I suppose I could use some of the yarns to knit or crochet something to sell or auction off, but my hands don’t like doing handwork much any more so it takes forEVER to finish something. And part of that might also be my eyes — if I can’t focus well enough to see what I’m doing, there’s not much point trying.

Ahhh well, if it ain’t one thing, it’s another. And, all things considered, my life is WAY better than what other people deal with on a daily basis, so I know I’m neither destitute nor utterly hopeless in my situation. Just frustrated that I don’t have the money to do all the things I want to be doing, and I don’t live in an area where I can just get up and do stuff in the neighborhood. When I lived in New Orleans on Constantinople, I could just walk to the corner and be on Magazine Street and walk miles in either direction, pass shops, look in windows, stop for a coffee, etc. I can’t do that in my current neighborhood. <*sigh*>