Weird night. Slept about 4 hours (off-and-on), get up for an hour and a half, went back to bed, woke around 6:00. Did a finger-stick (155! OMG!) and I don’t remember feeling this ‘ready-to-go-back-to-bed’ on rising in ages.

Yesterday I noticed I was generally feeling quite well indeed. Not so today. Dull and groggy.

I realize some of my ailments, like the lower bowel and the blood sugar issues are improving. But I saw the CT diagram of my aorta the other day at the doctor’s office — it is worse than I’d imagined, and there is a reason the doctor has me on meds to significantly lower my blood pressure and keep me ‘calm’ or ‘inactive’. So regardless what I feel like, I really am trying to NOT do much of anything that doesn’t actually need doing. And to know I will be mostly inactive for another six weeks after surgery is really annoying. At least it is annoying for now as I anticipate it; I suspect once the surgery is done and I am in pain, I probably won’t feel like doing much, at least for a few weeks.

And, as much as I thoroughly dislike the idea of going to rehab, if Medicare will pay for it I am seriously considering it. From what I hear, they will have various PT/OT activities to more thoroughly encourage me toward safely returning to activity. I suppose that is better than vegging out in front of binge-TV or something, and I won’t be staring daily at yarns and shit that need to eventually be dealt with.