Shit… the doctor just called with the results of the ultrasound. There is an aneurysm on my aorta, about 5cm x 5cm…. nearly a 2-inch thing that shouldn’t be there. 🙁

So, he’s putting in an URGENT request for me to see the vascular surgeon ASAP, and that will likely result in vascular surgery in the next week or two.

And now, I am officially scared. Scared of what might happen (or might have happened if it hadn’t been caught). Scared to do much physical exercise, lest I raise my heart rate and blow it out. Scared of what else could be going wrong in my body that is yet to be discovered.

This actually does upset me. Quite a bit. Normally, with all this medical stuff, I go online to learn more. I”m scared to look up aortic aneurysm. I don’t want to know. At least not just yet. My brain has a way of absorbing all the “worst case scenario” shit and amplifying it. Unfortunately, it is difficult to think of much else. 🙁 I imagine I will be doing a lot of hibernating, knitting or crocheting, and watching YouTube videos of old game shows.

So, I was mistaken in thinking I was done with clinics until January. 🙁