Well, okay, I’m in Facebook Jail — can’t post or comment or like/react for 24 hours.

I’m not sure which is worse — having power outages and can’t access anything online, or being able to read Facebook and not being able to respond or react at all. A lot of my Facebook activity is ‘in the moment’, instant gratification and participation. When I read something there, I can interact with others, or I can share something to my own page and others can react to me. Very much ‘in the moment’ that way. I don’t know if anyone even reads my blog here, and hardly anyone ever actually comments or leaves other indication they’ve visited.

I suppose it is good for me to have a little restraint from time to time on Facebook.

Today we’re starting a long weekend of rain, which doesn’t do me much good emotionally, so I know I have to pay attention and do the things that keep me uplifted and moving forward. Too many dark, wet, dreary days are definitely NOT good for me.

One thing I noticed recently was my blood sugar moving up and down. Not dangerously high, except one day last week I had two small pieces of dark chocolate and caramel, and my glucose went up over 250, which is really really not good. So I followed the endo’s guidelines and used a larger-than-normal amount of the fast-acting insulin. That resulted in a major drop a few hours later and I had to chew a couple glucose tablets. I was really shaky, sweaty, and awful for about 20 minutes until the glucose tablets got into my system.

Many months ago, I would start my day with the long-acting insulin and eat 2 hard-boiled eggs, 2 dates, and a container of yogurt for breakfast. That would carry me fairly well until lunch time and my glucose would be within limits at noon so I wouldn’t need the fast-acting insulin but maybe 3-4 times a week instead of twice a day. A couple months ago I got out of that habit. I started doing this morning routine again yesterday. I also took a brief walk (15 minutes) but fairly brisk pace, and my lunchtime finger-stick was 80. I took another shorter walk to the corner market in late afternoon, and my finger-stick was 91 just before supper. I want to keep my glucose around 80-100, although I can avoid the fast-acting insulin if I’m within the 70-130 range. My personal goal is to keep my A1C under 6.0 (last time it was 6.8, if I remember correctly).

One of my disheartening realities is my body seems to be changing at a more rapid pace. Or maybe just more noticeable these days. My right eye is not focusing at any distance, far or close, so I need to get that checked. Also, my fingers are doing strange things so it is uncomfortable to knit or crochet very long at all, almost to the point where I’m not interested at all in even trying. This isn’t good for me, given what I do for money these days. 🙂

Plus there are other creative things I want to pursue but I don’t have the space or the money. I’ve made my space work for dyeing yarn, but there’s no space for painting or using the loom or the knitting machines or setting up a quilting space. So many things I want to do, so many things I am prevented from doing. Grrrrr. Rather frustrating.