It was nearly 11:00 before I got to bed, but I fell asleep fairly quickly. Woke around 1:30 (pee) and again around 3:30 but wasn’t able to get back to sleep. So at 4:00 I stuck my finger – 177. Morning sticks are getting better. I wonder what it would have been if I had been able to sleep through until at least 6:00. We’ll never know. At least not today.
The unfortunate part of waking so early today is that I cannot depend on a decent nap today. I have to leave for the clinic by 10:45, and probably won’t get home until 3:30 or 4:00. Two different specialists today — and two specialist visit co-pays! First the endocrinologist, and then the G.I. specialist 2 hours later. No way am I going to come all the way home just to go back an hour and a half later. So I need to pack a healthy lunch that won’t make me fall asleep and miss my 2nd appointment. And I will carry coffee in my water bottle, since there is no place in the area to buy any coffee. I’m sure they have a water fountain somewhere there, even if there is no coffee machine.
Yes, I am stressing a bit this morning, which is probably why I’m not still asleep. Last evening, I got an email notification that some new test results had been posted to my chart. I opened my online chart (I love having access to my medical information!), and saw some numbers that seriously scare me. I don’t know what the numbers pertain to or what it means, so I’m not even going to share it here. I did sent a message to the Dr to ask, so I hope he or maybe today’s endo can explain it to me.
It seems to be an unwritten Law of the Universe that if you take your car to the mechanic for one problem, suddenly a host of other problems crop up that must be dealt with. That’s what it feels like as I navigate all this health-related stuff. Most likely, these various problems and issues have been developing over time, not all overnight, but now that my body is being examined everything is coming to light and ohmahgawd it is more than I want to (or feel able to) cope with.
On another note … this impeachment stuff is stressing me out. Yes, I do believe Trump has committed impeachable offenses, that he should be impeached, and that he should be removed from office. It amazes me that there are so many Trump-supporting members of the GOP who appear blind to all that has come out about him, just relating to the Ukraine issue, and they insist on defending the motherfucker. It actually sort of scares me what this nation is becoming. It scares me that there are people who still support Trump.