UGH! So, they called after last week’s visit to tell me my A1C was too high (12.1!!). I went this morning to follow up with that and some other numbers.

I was feeling mostly okay when I got up to get ready, but by the time I got there my legs weren’t working so well, causing me to walk slowly and with pain.

The upshot of today’s visit is that I came home with new prescriptions as well as a new blood glucose monitor, test strips, and lancets. The pharmacy didn’t have the Lipitor, so they’ll mail that to me tomorrow. The Metformin is giant pills that I’m supposed to take twice a day, but just once a day for the first few days. And I’ll start tomorrow morning doing a finger-stick test so that I start with a fasting baseline, and then have to test about 2 hours after a meal (probably lunch).

At the moment (late afternoon), I am feeling horrible, sluggish and slow. I don’t like this feeling. I truly hope I don’t have to continue like this very long. If I am to continue working at all, I simply cannot feel like this. I hate this. I’m able to stand for 10-15 minutes (I’m pulling hanks from cones, a stand-up task), and then I have to sit down and rest a bit.

I bought a book last week – “Managing Type 2 Diabetes for Dummies”. The doctor was glad I was taking the initiative to educate myself. OMG there is SO MUCH to know. I hope I can remember it. But at least there is a book so I can look up things as they come up.

I’ve spent my life being “healthy”, so living in an unhealthy body is a new thing for me. It’s taking a toll on me, mostly in my head. Well, mostly in my body, but my mental health is affected. I just want to feel better. Someday soon, I hope.