Well, I almost nearly forgot to come here and post something, but I determined to at least try to post something, anything, for 7 days.
I had a pretty good spring and early-summer, but then the summer heat kicked in and whooped my ass — sales have been slow and the electric bill tripled. It happens like this nearly every year, so I shouldn’t be surprised, but this past July was the hottest month of any month ever recorded, and then August was the hottest August ever recorded. So no wonder I’ve been feeling horrid most of the time, and out of sorts.
Plus I have determined that I will crank up the Dragon and get my memoirs written. And, of course, when I start talking about shit that happened, it dredges up a lot of the old feelings and emotional shit. There are some events of my life that I can talk about without the emotional stuff — things happened and I can tell them straightforward and not get all wacky in my head, but other things still bring up a bunch of hurt or anger or something else.
Because of the heat I’ve been staying inside a LOT, and thinking about the past I’ve been in a sometimes dark mood. Or at least darker than I would like. I’ve been feeling not-quite-stuck and not-quite-fluid, either. It’s weird. I know it won’t last, and I’m not too concerned about it — just going through it to get to the other side.
I do try to eat as well as I normally do, and I have been aiming to get to bed at a regular time each night, and this does help. Last night I got nearly 7 hours sleep without waking up in the wee hours. As long as I go through the motions of eating (mostly) right, sleeping fairly well, and getting my exercise walks in every other day, the mental/emotional shit will balance out as well.
And, I think if I can find a regular time to sit and write a bit each day, that will help as well. Regularity of habit helps bring regularity of thought and mood. At least, that’s what I am hoping. 🙂
So, anyway, there is it — another rather dull update. Tomorrow I will try to have something more interesting to write about. 🙂